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Hey ho everyone, bad news I’m afraid. I had something epic to blog, but now it’s gone straight out my head, like a dog that’s been scared by it’s own fart…

Maybe if I keep writing it’ll come back to me

Compy’s playing up a bit atm, maybe there’s a virus? Idk, and I care even less, I won’t be using it for too much longer! Uni soon

Oh Em Gee, I’m paping myself about exams, I’m so scaredI’m gonna fail… As soon as the weekend’s over, I’ll revise

Or I would, except my shitty boss has roped me in to work overtime even though I have exams… I swear all bosses do that… Cunts…

Sex against the wall? Wtf? As if anyone actually does that… I mean, awkward, uncomfortable, being lifted from the floor by your genitals… It’s not nice. Give me a nice, cozy bed any day

Done some more filming for SIME, it’s gonna be fab I spent most of it walking around in a cloak and hood that covered my face, scaring UntoldLie and several other people ^_^ It was rather good fun

I need to blog some SIME sometime, in fact I may go and do that now…

Laters my lovely duckies

B xxx

Blagh

Well, UntoldLie’s finally got me into doing twitter… I’m just about to do it…

Had a great time y’day making some more S.I.M.E,  especially scaring the bollocks off a certain someone even when I warned them I was gonna jump out! Mega Lols XD

Hopefully we’re doing more today…

I tell you what though, I saw someone serving in a pub y’day who looked almost exactly like Mr J.C, scared the shit out of me at first but then I noticed it wasn’t really him, he wasn’t as good looking and he didn’t have big brown eyes Lol never mind; it just scared the crap outta me and made me feel sad.

Oh well.

Short post today I’m afraid, I’m not in the mood for blogging much at, I just wanna get out there and film film film!!!

Ta-ta

B xxx

La la la la la la laaaa

OMGOMGOMG!!!

OMG!!!! I totally can’t wait for the launch of Spit In My Eye!! It’s gonna be amazing!!! All credit to UntoldLie, he did all the editing and stuff

I really can’t wait to see them all up and running It’s gonna be soooo fabulous!!! I have no idea how far it’ll get, or how many people will like it….but maybe…juuuust maybe…we’ll be famous

We even have a cameraman lined up for our next filming sesh! gotta love U.L’s bf nawwww, I love ‘em both

It’s actually made me well happy

Mind you, bringing the tone down abit, I’m a weeeeny bit pissed off at a supposed mate atm…bloody having a whinge at me just because there were other people around and they were showing off…. typical. I’m getting so fed up with them right now! Urgh.

Oh wellity, shit happens.

I can’t wait until Friday! Not only are we having breakfast in English, and making my teacher walk on his hands (legend!) but instead of going to some crappy ball, I’m spending the rest of the day with my two good buddies and filmong! We have sooo many ideas, it’s just fabulous

I bloody love it, I reckon this is the happiest I’ve been in a long time… And I mean genuinley happy, not just a facade. The only time I can remember being this actual happy was when I was with Mr. JC, buuut I’m not thinking about that, coz I don’t do friends, he don’t do relationships, so we ain’t speaking. A real pity, but hey, I’ve no heart left to break anymore, the last piece went missing when I broke contact.

Never mind.

Anyway, I’m off, I’ll catch you peeps later!

Toodle-pip

B xxx

One day… I’ll be famous…

Morning’s here

Hey peoples, it’s another Brittish chilly morning

I tell you what though, that sun at the weekend was amazing! So frigging fierce! I burned though all over my shoulders and back, and it still hurts 2 days on :/

Oh well, it was worth it coz I’ve been working on something with my good pal UntoldLies on something special, and we used the weekend to get loads of material We’re gonna do some more this friday too.

Urgh, Friday though… it’s the day of the ball, and I’m not going because I can’t afford it, which has made me feel like crap, and it’s worse when people keep going on about it! Well, I’m spending the day with two very special peeps instead so I’m good

Really can’t wait to be internet famous! As if it’s going to happen! Lol.

Off out tonight, to the pb for a mate’s 18th, I swear, I’ve been to every cnceviable 18th b’day party immaginable! Like piss-ups (traditional), hot tubs (unusual), Restaurants (pretty normal), Curry houses and chineses (cool), and to come are Fancy Dress (normal) Nintendo themed (AWESOME) Or assault course (weird, but cool )

I do like birthday parties, they’re always so much fun :0 I like getting prezzies for them too lol

Still sitting in Castle atm, eating a pasta salad, because I’m gonna try and tone up for Tennerrief (sp) and need to be healthy.

Ah, fuck it.

That’s another thing, y’know, when you swear really loudly, realise a kid’s behind you, then swear even more due to the embarrasing realisation you’ve singlehandedly taught a kid to curse? Yeah. I done that XD

Kinda embarrassing XD but still, very funny

I’ve created a mascot for the youtubie thing! H’s called Alfie, and he kinda looks like a snowman in a top hat, but he isn’t a snowman…. I dunno what he is, actually… But he’s still sweet ^_^

meh, on funnyjunk agai, and it’s really not as cool as it used to be. really, the only reason I’m on there is to keep up with the news and participate in wars not cool, but I occasionally find some stuff worth laughing at there

Bleh.

Oh well, bimbling off now because, like always, I’ve said nothing constructive or useful, nothing amusing nor helpful, naught that is inspiring or thought provoking, so ….

Bye

B xxx

Castle News

Good morning from my free period at Castle 6th form. Currently, I am sitting in a low, relatively comfy chair that makes it impossible to type, but I’m doing my best I also have a crap mouse, because people have stolen all but one keyboard and mouse, which I am using now.

I’m debating whether to put these blogs up on Facebook, but considering some (ok, most) of my posts contain rants/whinges/pining about people, I don’t think it’s a great idea! Lol oh well.

Behind these compys here is a year old shitty display of posters from my English Lit group about Keat’s poems, like Lamia or La Belle Dame Sans Merci, or The Eve of St. Agnes. The posters themselves are ok, there are some quite talented artists here, but the idea was to do loads of quotes… it didn’t happen lol. But my Eve of St. Agnes poster was taken down to make way for Wuthering-fucking-Heights! I was so insulted, but they did put up my detailed doodle of the house tbf Some guy even said “Who on earth did that, it’s awesome”

“which one?”

“that one” 

 ”I did ” lol.

 And also on the topic of art on the Castle walls, what the fuck is it about old pictures having women with their tits hanging out?! Some kind of medieval pornography?

I mean, come on! Nobody wants to see a 200 year dead woman’s boobies thanks very much ta and goodnight! Sheesh, is it really art if you get your tits out?

I hate porn though; I really do. It’s degrading, disgusting, and so fake. Sex is supposed to be the ultimate act of love and respect between two people, ok, in any which way they want, up to them, but still, it shouldn’t be filmed and paraded about for total strangers to watch! And it’s soooo fake! You can tell the women get nothing from it; no wonder it was designed by men.

Lol I sound like so much of a femminist here XD I don’t mean to, I just hate porn. Not arousing at all, and really quite boring.

Lol just had a thought, what on earth would people think if they came  up stairs and saw the end half of this rant?! Like they don’t think I’m weird enough already!

Exams are coming up, I’m doing fuck all revision. I need to do some, but, like I’ve said before, no motivation. It’s all a bit rubbish to be fair. I just wanna get my grades and fuck off on a long holiday before going to uni. I really can’t wait to go there, it’ll be immense

Lol people keep coming up to me and telling me how awesome my party was, and how much they want another! How cool am I :)

I tell you though, I had my last HPV (or whatver) jab yesterday, and the nurse completely fucked it up! Like the nurse I had for my first two was lovely, it was over in seconds and I felt nothing. But, this one; she put the needle in, decided it was in the wrong bit of my arm, took it out, put it back in and wiggled it about in me fucking arm! It fucking hurt! I even have a big bruise on my arm now… bitch…

Bleah, I actually am epically bored now. I’m all out of steam for today, and yet again, this blog post has no meaning or direction, it’s merely an emptying of my thoughts and what-have-you, an outpouring of mind-sputum if you will. Actually, strike that, it’s gross.

Ok, one more thought…

I miss Julian.

Bye peoples

B xxx

Yello

Well well my friends, what a weekend its been

I know I’ve told you about friday, well, the gist of it anyway, which was epic. The downside was cleaning up afterwards on saturday on 2 hours sleep; it took me nearly all day to do it!

Sunday was cool though, it was monnington’s 18th birthday so I went round his with some mates for a hot-tub party It was great, but I made the mistake of doing my hair and makeup nicely, and was dunked within seconds :/ Not so cool

Oh well, back into my usual routine of random crap. Parents are home, and I got 300 fags and £20 for my trouble of looking after the house and dogs pretty epic payment I think XD

I hate work though, it’s dull, repettative, my boss is a cunt, it’s bloody effort to go, and I have exams coming up. Ok, it pays well, but it’s still crap!

I saw an ad in the paper though, advertising for someone to help in a care home. Flexible hours and training, I dunno what the pay’s like, but I reckon I might do a bit, and if it’s good, I might quit my job and just do that. After exams, of course

Eh, life sucks atm.

I wonder though, what actually happens when you die? It would be crap if it was just nothing. I remember talking to someone about this; y’know kinetic energy, like movement sorta shit? when you die, where does it go? Would that explain paranormal activity? And what if our life as we know it is a dream, and when we sleep, what if those “dreams” are actually our real life?

Weird shit.

I’m sorry about being such a crap blogger atm, I just either don’t have the time or motivation to come on here and write, but even when I do, I spout loads of crap people probably couldn’t care less about.

FML

On a lighter note, I really wanna start making a youtube series with my buddy Untold Lies from here, what a legend that guy is I reckon we need a random idea, and film about it for 5 mins or so. Hey, we may be famous one day…

La la la la la la la

I’m really bored.

Boredom is up with something which I should not put, but I truly can’t be arsed to do anything constructive woth my life at the moment. I get bored so easily, but I’m always so tired; and I am never motivated any more. It really sucks. maybe I need to go to the Dr.’s, but again, can’t be arsed.

Ooh, got my final jab today for this cancer thingy. Great. Needles. My favourite thing. Not. Blegh. I’m not scared of needles, I just prefer not to be jabbed with a teent sharp pointy thing and injected with a foreign substance, thank you very much.

I sooo wanna win the lottery; I’d just arse about allll the time, go to the gym, go on holidays, lounge about in a massive squashy armchair playing on the Sims 3 or some shit…

I’d love it. I know there are more people out there who deserve it more than me, but fuck ‘em, I want some goddamned riches!

Meh. Depressed myself now.

I’m scootin’ before I carry on ranting and whining.

I’ll try and be funny next time

B xxx

Urgh…Morning…

hello my little chickidees, it’s saturday morning after my very 1st house party, which I think went rather well Ok, I didn’t pull, and some fucking twats threw someone’s shoes on the roof, but other than that and some screaming at about 2 in the morning (Oh and Farrington being sick) it went rather well

I’m exhausted though, got about 2 hours sleep total, coz I had to get up at 7 to feed my doggies AND the house is filthy, after I spent ages cleaning it, but I guess I’m going to have to do it again soon.

I’ve been pretty good with tidying up, but I need to sweep, hoover, mop and clean the surfaces yet, which is alot to do when you’re on your own!

Argh, I think Sam V.S videoed me doing the Macarena; I was slightly sozzled so I don’t think my idea of “sexy” dancing came out too well :/ Oh well, I can say I was pretending to be Kat XD as opposed to my drunken half taking over Oh well, it was still a good night

Oy, some bitch is pissing me off, Julian dumped his gf because she cheated on him, and yet she’s pretty much leeching onto him from what I can tell from facebook. Ok, I still love him and all that jazz, so it may be a jealousy thing, but she cheated on him for fucks sake! Get over yourself!

Urgh, maybe I should too…

Ok, he’s been texting me 1st and stuff, and he called me, but I don’t know wheter he just wants to be mates or whether he wants anything to happen, but I don’t want to bring up the issue, I’m scared of getting the wrong answer.

I swear, sometimes I think my life would be so much better if I’d never met him… well, at least my heart wouldn’t break all the time…

Oy… I’m being depressive…

Listening to Moulin Rouge’s Roxeanne at the moment; I love it and Come What May Next, awesome songs

I’m still in my jammies well, when I say jammies, I mean a dressing gown XD Love it ^_^

I acn’t think of much else to say, other than I’m shitting myself about my exams, I should really try to revise, but I’m suffering from cba’d syndrome

Toodle pip toadies

B xxx

Oh wow…

Oh God, I got a text from my ex who hasn’t spoken to me for months, wishing me luck for exams. I was like WTF? then he said he was s orry for being a dick and hoped I could forgive him enough to be friends. I wasn’t even sure it was him, so I said so, but it was! He called me and we were on the phone for about 2 1/2 hours! I’m still in shock!

My problem is, I still have really strong feelings for him, and I’m worried this won’t go anywhere. Friends is better than nothing, but the kind of convo we were having was just like it was before he asked me out. Brought back memories, man. I was trying sooo hard not to cry I think my eye fell out at one point…

But seriously, it was so unexpected. He’d broken up with his gf the day or so before though, and he’d been drinking, so I don’t know whether it was because of that he called me, but I want to believe it’s because he misses me, because I sure as hell miss him. It’s crazy!

Argh, Stubby keeps on nudging my hand to fuss him, and typing one-handed is hard…

To be fair, if he asked me out again (Julian, this is) I’d probably say yes without thinking. Even though if I thought about it, my answer would probably be the same. Argh! I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I can dream.

Oy… I actually think I still… Nah, he might read this and kill me :/

So, I’ve only had about 4 hours sleep, but hey, it was worth it Parents left for Spain at half 3 this morning, and they should be there soon so free house lol, I can’t wait til my partay!

Listening to Tim Minchin’s “Fat Children”, it’s amazing I love his stuff, he’s so funny XD

Been having some uber-weird dreams too, like totally off the wall, most of them meaning my life’s out of control… Oh well

Anyway, have to go get ready to see my buddy Stephen

Toodle-Pip

B xxx