Sorryyy!!!

Guys, seriously, I’m soooo sorry for not blogging as much as I should have been, I’ve failed you utterlyyy!!!

Excuses are not my forte, but I’ve just been uber busy with random crap that’s kept me away from my compy, and when I do actually manage to get online, I never have anything to say. It’s pretty rubbishy actually, because when I’m out and about I generally come up with stuff which is pretty intense and deep, but by the time I’ve got online al my inspiration has gone and I’d much rather curl up in bed with a good book or my DS than sit in a baking conservatory and try to write when I feel dull.

Ok, now I’ve stopped moaning and grovelling (for now) I guess I’d better update you all on recent goings on…

Finished my A levels, they were tough as shit and I hated them, and have since been working at Boots, seeing friends, helping my mum, or sleeping. It’s hard to get up before 9 now… I used to be up at 6 every day without fail, and I have no idea now how I manged it!

Done a full day at work; not worth the money, but it wasn’t as bad as I expected…

Been filming for more Spit in My Eye (or SiME o_X) which is always good, I enjoy it, But we need to get more done! Lols.

Apparently my mate’s coming to see me soon… I made a whoopsie with the dates though, so I hope it’s gonna work out, because, to be fair, if he says no again, (said no the last 3-4 times I asked him to come up ¬¬) I’m going to physically drag him down here. I may have made a mistake, but seriously dude, there are no obligations til August for you! :p It should be fine, my head’s just a bit fuzzy at the moment. Feeling Ill.

I don’t generally admit to much, but I’m feeling incredibly fragile at the moment…It’s kinda like all the emotions I’ve been hiding for the past 18 years are getting a bit pissed at not being let out… But I don’t do that. I have this image of someone who generally doesn’t give a fuck, and never cries, just gets grumpy but is generally fun to be around and a bit of a laugh.

I’m sick of it.

I’m sick of being the happy-go-lucky who doesn’t care if people poke fun at me, or if I’m the butt of a joke.

Well I do care.

I’m fed up of people taking the piss if I get something wrong, or say something slightly out of place.

I’m not perfect, I never said I was, I just hate it when people make fun of me constantly for no good reason other than it’s good sport.

I’m sick of not being able to cry.

I’m sorry that this has turned into another whinge about my life, but I’m so swamped by everything at the moment I need to talk about it, even if it’s only a blog. I know people don’t give a fuck, and that’s fine by me. I don’t need strangers to care bout my feelings, just those closest to me.

My image won’t change. If I start crying in public or getting super-pissed off at a seemingly harmless joke, people will just think I’ve had a breakdown…

Well, you know what?

Fuck them.

Fuck them all.

I’ll be whoever and whatever I want to be, and no force on this earth or outside of it will make me be anyone other than who I want to be.

Listening to P!nk’s So What at the moment…It always cheers me up… I’m soo getting some of those lyrics tattooed on me one day…

Getting my hair cut tomorrow, hopefully reminiscent of P!nk’s hair in U+ Ur Hand, when she’s boxing. Perhaps not red…not yet, anyway.

Argh, not much else for me to say, other than I love some of the people in my life, I hate others, and am indifferent towards the rest. Those who don’t care about me, I couldn’t give a fuck about you. If you’re gonna love me, Love me like your life depends upon it, for that is how I’ll love you.

Listen to me, getting all phillisophical and romantic, I think I might be seriously ill… I hate romancy things, it makes me feel icky.

Ok, if someone buys me flowers or cooks a nice dinner for me etc, I like it and I really appreciate the gesture, but I totally don’t know how to react! I mean, JC was the first person to EVER get me flowers, and I had no idea what to do. Awkward or what? Not that I didn’t like them, because they were lovely.

Gone off on a tangent again, my apologies.

I fear you won’t get another coherent sentence out of me, so I’ll leave it at that.

Take care pineapple fiends.

B xxx

Hey Ho

I’ve been a bad bad blogger, I know, but I do have a valid excuse this time! I’ve been revising, which sucks a little, but if I wanna get another 100% in Psychology again, I need to do it. I had a bit of a break at the weekend though, I went to the peace festival twice, and on the second time, I bought a fucking hammock!!

Well, I part bought it, as I have no money at the moment, but I’m gonna pay my debt as soon as I get paid, and then I part Own this baby it’s prety epic, it can fit 5 adults in it

I can’t wait to use it though, it’ll probs be for Emma’s 18th Oh wellity, it’s great.

Been doing some  SiME too, pretty fun, I’m just waiting for the next episde to go up, we’re really on a roll with them atm, we’ve got loads backed up and ready to go out, and plenty more ideas!! If anyone has an idea for us that they’d like us to film, by all means, contact us and we’ll definately consider it

I’m signing off now though, I just felt I had to update you all on my boring life

Take care now

B xxx

Urgh

Oh my god, work was so unbelievably bad today. It wasn’t the entire day, just one rude bloody woman ruined my whole day.

Basically, I work in a pharmacy, and if I’m to sell co-codamol, which is paracetamol and codene for those who don’t know, I have to ensure the customer is aware that codene is addictave. This scabby old woman comes in, stinking to high heaven, I kid you not, askes for co-codamol, I go through the routine Q’s like I’m supposed to, and before I’ve finished my sentence, she’s going off one one!

Mostly about how she could be my great-grandmother (no shit luv) and how it’s humiliating to be told this (well if you wanna kill yoursef, go ahead) and that I should ask her how she should pay me instead of asking her this! (where the fuck did that come from…?!)

I mean seriously, do these people have nothing better to do with their lives? I don’t usually work saturdays, but according to my collegues that’s the worst day for arseholes to come in and make our life hell.

I seriously hate the public, what gives anyone the right to start yelling at someone who’s doing them a service? Ok, if the service is appaling and the person is being rude, unnattentive and generally a bad employee, the customer has the right to complain, but it’s the ones, like today, who whinge for no reason, belittle others and yell at them because they know if the employee retaliates they have every right to file a formal complaint. I mean, I’m always polite whenever I’m a customer, and I bet you if I’d have been the customer and she the employee she’d have skitzed out if I’d behaved like that.

I seriously wanted to drop kick her in the face… I was so angry I nearly cried, and people who know me know I don’t cry. That’s how angry I was.

Then, (you’ll not believe this) when I gave her her change and said goodbye (forcefully) she starts sucking up to me, but in a really patronising way, and I have to stand there like a complete mug while she prattles on for another five minutes. Cunt.

Some people really make me sick, the old fogeys all moan about how we teens and young adults are uncouth and rude and generally a bad influence, but they should seriously take a good, long look at themselves. They say “Follow our example!” Well, we do guys, but you don’t like taking your own medicine, do you?

I do like old people in general, I really do, because they’re usually quite sweet, but it’s ones like them which makes me think we should just freak ‘em all out by blaring air raid sirens ever couple o’ months…

If you hadn’t guessed, I’m in a ranty mood…

Oh yeah! More old people whinges now; we’re like 10 minutes from shutting the shop, where we scoot round with the duster and tie up any loose ends, before locking the door, getting the money out the till and leaving, when this old guy comes in. Now, I’d put a parking ticket on my car for the time I’d be there, but as I was early I had to go and grab a free 15 minute one 10 minutes before we left, and I’d done that, then this guy comes in.

He’s old, he’s deaf, and he seems to be a bit bumbling. As one, all staff thought “oh fucking no…” and rightly so. Bless him though, he comes in with this querey, and we spend ages trying to sort him out and tell him what to do, but he just didn’t get it. And then there’s me, hopping about on the spot, aware the ticket officer is doing his rounds (a rarity, I know) and I’ve only got 5 minutes left after we shut on time (which was looking unlikely at this point) to get to my car.

Well, we finally boot him out (nicely) at one, our closing time, lock up etc and get ready to go. BUT there’s this one girl who works there, she always takes FOREVER to get sorted, so we tend to leave 10 minutes after closing time because she’s still farting around. Every. Single. Time. Seriously, GET ORGANISED BEFORE!

So she’s arseing around, KNOWING I have to go. It’s the fact that she knew that pissed me off. I just leave. I say “bye bye” and leave. End of crap day. becomes good day when I see my SiME buddy.

Ooh, I’m worn out with this ranting.

In other news, went to a birthday pub party at the Q&C, one of my many locals, and it was great, until some fools decided to bring in some chips from the chippy, so we get booted out and barred. Good one guys ¬¬

But, overall, it was a good night.

Pubbing it again tonight, I seem to be doing everything to avoid revision right now… but hey, I’ll manage… I think… I hope… I fucking pray, man…

Signing off now

Don’t forget SiME!

Love and Hugglies

B xxx

Revision

What is it? Seriously. Other than a fancy word for torture, and NOT (as has been pointed out by facebook friends) very subtle either! I kinda think I’m gonna do bad, but I am actually working my butt off to do it atm, I really need B’s at least. Psychology I’m not worried about, it’s my best subject, it’s jut my two hardest ones, History and English are just 22 hours apart! Oh God in Heaven, why did I take three of the hardest subjects?!

I should of just taken art again… might of been easier than English or History tbf…

Thats other news too, I went to the art exhibition at castle, all my friends doing art had all their stuff up, and it was bloody amazing! Really inspired me to do some of it, but the problem is, anything I get inspired to to stops me from being motivated to revise… not that I am anyway.

Been eating loadsa blue cheese too, I love the stuff but it means noone can be in the same room as me for more than half an hour… oh well, I don’t want company anyways…

Just seen some crap on youtube, claiming to be funny, but it reall isnt. I hate it when people try and be something they’re not, it’s just stupid. FML.

I’m bored now, and I’m not feeling very creative, all my brain juices have been squeezed into that bi ol’ revision cocktail, and it’s rubbish.

Oh yeah, check out the Spitin My Eye blog, and the youtube series, another vid is being uploaded by my dear SiME partner Stephen, I can’t wait til it’s up

Take care, bogey breath.

B xxx

hiyaaar

Heyyy peoples, I’m back! I know I haven’t been a good blogger recently, but my interwebbies have been down and there’s been a virus too bad times.

the sun has been shining brightly, and I can’t remember if I’ve blogged this already, but about 2 weeks ago, I got sunburned, and I still have sores on my shoulder from it, it was that bad!

Not been up to much though, was supposed to be revising, but that failed XD have been spending time with friends instead, picnicing, partying and pubbing it I did go to Monningtons one night though with emma and sam, we went on the trampoline and i managed to sprain my ankle (alcohol was involved XD) but it was still good, and the next day I went to a nice picnic in abbey with my buddies and then to the pub… the evidence is on facebook XD

it’s all been good really, but im papping it about exams though, not looking foreward to them at all :/

oh well

bored now, will blog later

B xxx

:)

Hey ho everyone, bad news I’m afraid. I had something epic to blog, but now it’s gone straight out my head, like a dog that’s been scared by it’s own fart…

Maybe if I keep writing it’ll come back to me

Compy’s playing up a bit atm, maybe there’s a virus? Idk, and I care even less, I won’t be using it for too much longer! Uni soon

Oh Em Gee, I’m paping myself about exams, I’m so scaredI’m gonna fail… As soon as the weekend’s over, I’ll revise

Or I would, except my shitty boss has roped me in to work overtime even though I have exams… I swear all bosses do that… Cunts…

Sex against the wall? Wtf? As if anyone actually does that… I mean, awkward, uncomfortable, being lifted from the floor by your genitals… It’s not nice. Give me a nice, cozy bed any day

Done some more filming for SIME, it’s gonna be fab I spent most of it walking around in a cloak and hood that covered my face, scaring UntoldLie and several other people ^_^ It was rather good fun

I need to blog some SIME sometime, in fact I may go and do that now…

Laters my lovely duckies

B xxx

Blagh

Well, UntoldLie’s finally got me into doing twitter… I’m just about to do it…

Had a great time y’day making some more S.I.M.E,  especially scaring the bollocks off a certain someone even when I warned them I was gonna jump out! Mega Lols XD

Hopefully we’re doing more today…

I tell you what though, I saw someone serving in a pub y’day who looked almost exactly like Mr J.C, scared the shit out of me at first but then I noticed it wasn’t really him, he wasn’t as good looking and he didn’t have big brown eyes Lol never mind; it just scared the crap outta me and made me feel sad.

Oh well.

Short post today I’m afraid, I’m not in the mood for blogging much at, I just wanna get out there and film film film!!!

Ta-ta

B xxx

La la la la la la laaaa

OMGOMGOMG!!!

OMG!!!! I totally can’t wait for the launch of Spit In My Eye!! It’s gonna be amazing!!! All credit to UntoldLie, he did all the editing and stuff

I really can’t wait to see them all up and running It’s gonna be soooo fabulous!!! I have no idea how far it’ll get, or how many people will like it….but maybe…juuuust maybe…we’ll be famous

We even have a cameraman lined up for our next filming sesh! gotta love U.L’s bf nawwww, I love ‘em both

It’s actually made me well happy

Mind you, bringing the tone down abit, I’m a weeeeny bit pissed off at a supposed mate atm…bloody having a whinge at me just because there were other people around and they were showing off…. typical. I’m getting so fed up with them right now! Urgh.

Oh wellity, shit happens.

I can’t wait until Friday! Not only are we having breakfast in English, and making my teacher walk on his hands (legend!) but instead of going to some crappy ball, I’m spending the rest of the day with my two good buddies and filmong! We have sooo many ideas, it’s just fabulous

I bloody love it, I reckon this is the happiest I’ve been in a long time… And I mean genuinley happy, not just a facade. The only time I can remember being this actual happy was when I was with Mr. JC, buuut I’m not thinking about that, coz I don’t do friends, he don’t do relationships, so we ain’t speaking. A real pity, but hey, I’ve no heart left to break anymore, the last piece went missing when I broke contact.

Never mind.

Anyway, I’m off, I’ll catch you peeps later!

Toodle-pip

B xxx

One day… I’ll be famous…